I need to figure out what I'm going to be when I "grow up".
When I say this out loud my teenagers look at me completely confused. "Mom, you are grown up." Yep, my years prove that I am a full grown adult but what was necessary for my families needs, beginning 17 years ago, is dwindling. Errands, tasks, appointments, school volunteering - daily jobs of being a stay-at-home mom (not counting the cleaning. Oh God, the never ending cleaning!) aren't what they used to be.
I was very fortunate to be able to stay home with both of our children and next year both of our girls will be in high school. I need to find something that will fill my spirit and my time (AND that has NOTHING to do with house cleaning!) to take myself through my next phase of life. What am I going to be when I grow up?
What ever it is I will need more education. I wish I could be more excited about that, but I'm not. School was never a comfortable situation for me. Extreme anxiety would cause me to fill my head with panic at being called on, which drowned out the necessity to listen to the teacher so that I could learn what the heck the subject was about. Very bad cycle.
I wonder what would happen if I attended a blog conference? After all these years of having two blogs I've never gone to a conference. If I'm to get these blogs into a much higher gear I think the only way to make that happen is attend a conference. And guess what? That terrifies me too.
I've gotta do something though. I really do.
(*You have to be a certain age to get this ;-> )