Trying to get back into the swing of things regarding school and work schedules isn't easy for us after a nice Winter Break. I see a lot of mother's comment on how they can't wait for school to start again, but I'm not one of them. One mom claimed to have been up, dressed and on her second cup of coffee just waiting for her kids to wake-up and get them off to school, she was so excited. She and I are on different ends of that spectrum.
I know that the situation at Sandy Hook plays a part in my wanting to keep my kids home. In fact, what happened there has created a kind of cloud in my thinking of just about everything. Christmas was beautiful, but all the while I was wrapping my children's gifts I kept thinking of those that could not. My heart just hurts so much.
I'm doing my best to push through. But I'm beginning to wonder how much of this am I supposed to be feeling so intensely. I wasn't there. It didn't happen to me. I don't personally know the victims. It's just that our experiences are similar; raising your child, getting them ready for the day, taking them to school. Then that horror.
I have a tendency to remember bad things more than good. Remember the criticism louder than the compliment. I need to figure out a way to deal with things, and move on.
I know that the situation at Sandy Hook plays a part in my wanting to keep my kids home. In fact, what happened there has created a kind of cloud in my thinking of just about everything. Christmas was beautiful, but all the while I was wrapping my children's gifts I kept thinking of those that could not. My heart just hurts so much.
I'm doing my best to push through. But I'm beginning to wonder how much of this am I supposed to be feeling so intensely. I wasn't there. It didn't happen to me. I don't personally know the victims. It's just that our experiences are similar; raising your child, getting them ready for the day, taking them to school. Then that horror.
I have a tendency to remember bad things more than good. Remember the criticism louder than the compliment. I need to figure out a way to deal with things, and move on.