So... about that job interview. ("Let Me Know If I Can Help You With Anything")
I was driving to my appointment doing my best not to turn around. My mind was beginning to spin out of control with thoughts of 'how this situation wasn't going to work with my life right now' but then I would bounce back with 'I've been giving an opportunity and I need to honor it'.
Where had my strength gone? Where was my inner power? If anyone in my life needs a pep talk I feel pretty darn comfortable with that. But then here I was, losing my cool, and I couldn't talk myself out of it.
I pushed through. I parked the car. Did I turn off the engine? Not right away. The thought of calling to cancel flashed through my mind but I shook it off, literally shook my head, and got out of the car. I realized that I was on the verge of a panic attack and did my best to breathe and smile. I knew that none of this emotion was logical and tried to laugh it off. My reaction was making no sense at all. This was so not me and yet here I was, experiencing massive anxiety. I walked in the store. I said 'Hello' to the manager and began the interview.
Here's the bottom line of our talk, she understood that end of August or beginning of September would be better. She welcomed me to call her and get going with training around those times.
Whew.
I am grateful for her understanding. And I'm thrilled with this opportunity, although I'm still nervous. But this is a new experience for me and I'm looking forward to this beginning.
I was driving to my appointment doing my best not to turn around. My mind was beginning to spin out of control with thoughts of 'how this situation wasn't going to work with my life right now' but then I would bounce back with 'I've been giving an opportunity and I need to honor it'.
Where had my strength gone? Where was my inner power? If anyone in my life needs a pep talk I feel pretty darn comfortable with that. But then here I was, losing my cool, and I couldn't talk myself out of it.
I pushed through. I parked the car. Did I turn off the engine? Not right away. The thought of calling to cancel flashed through my mind but I shook it off, literally shook my head, and got out of the car. I realized that I was on the verge of a panic attack and did my best to breathe and smile. I knew that none of this emotion was logical and tried to laugh it off. My reaction was making no sense at all. This was so not me and yet here I was, experiencing massive anxiety. I walked in the store. I said 'Hello' to the manager and began the interview.
Here's the bottom line of our talk, she understood that end of August or beginning of September would be better. She welcomed me to call her and get going with training around those times.
Whew.
I am grateful for her understanding. And I'm thrilled with this opportunity, although I'm still nervous. But this is a new experience for me and I'm looking forward to this beginning.