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Self Image

Had a wonderful time with the family yesterday. We spent the hot afternoon in a cool spot where two little rivers meet. So beautiful. Many pictures were taken (on a camera that is on it's last leg. So frustrating!!!!) Last night we looked at the pictures of our day and, instead of being happy with our memories, I fixated on the size of my thighs, the pooch of my stomach.

I couldn't believe that I looked like that!

I've been feeling so strong lately. I've been exercising and swimming. I don't jiggle as much when I walk and I can get up off the couch without using my hands to heft me up. I feel strong! But then I look at these pictures and feel like crap.

Argh.

I'm not going to give up. Feeling strong feels really good! I just need to work a little harder. And only take close-ups ;->

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21 comments:

  1. The camera really does add 10 lbs. sometimes and that is a lot. Think of a 5 lbs. bags of flour hanging off each of your thighs that isn't really there. Anyways, if you are leading a healthy life you can feel good that you are leading by example for your children and that is more important.

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  2. You know, every time you do a vlog on your other blog, all I can think is how absolutely stunning you are. Inside and out.
    :)

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  3. I've seriously been obsessing over my thighs lately...odd that you wrote about that. I'm sure your thighs are just fabulous!

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  4. You know you probably think you look worse than you do - I bet your thighs don't look half as bad as you think they do! I do that too. I actually go through the computer deleting all the shots of myself I don't like!

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  5. Ann, go to my post from Saturday read it. I am a woman in my um mid life. Yeah mid-life anyway I was on LA news Friday morning and I saw myself for the first time since I lost 35 pounds and well since I've gotten old. I realized that is who I am and I have a choice. I can pick myself apart or I can love who I have become because what is inside is still me.

    Ann you are not your thighs nor are you the wrinkles or sagging skin that comes with age. You are who you are within, a beautiful vibrant woman! So chin up tits and and don't worry about those thighs. Set a positive example for our young girls that it's not outside but inside that matters.

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  6. That is supposed to say chin up tits out!:)

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  7. As a person, who has gone thru at least a decade or more than you...all I can say is ..at the time something looks discouraging.. a while later it looks pretty good!

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  8. I am quite sure I would trade my left boob for your thighs. :) Not really. Two boobs are good to have.

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  9. Ah Ann, you can't be so damn hard on yourself. Post a picture, let us see! I bet you look way better than you think you do!

    Justine :o )

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  10. Camera pictures always make us look heavier. I feel like you when I look at pictures. I have been falling off the wagon of exercising and need to get my butt back on. Good that your feeling strong!! Keep thinking positive!

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  11. Ugh. I feel your pain! Ann--we need to worry less about how WE think we look and worry more about how we feel. The camera adds like a hundred pounds!! ;-) My husband is forever telling me that I'm beautiful...and maybe it's time that I started believing him. Maybe real beauty does come from within....from how we feel! If you feel strong then girl...you're strong! If you feel like crud....remember when you felt strong and go back to that! ;-)

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  12. Don't give up! Feeling good is what it's all about! I bet you have fab thighs anyway!

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  13. Don't beat yourself up! Concentrate on how you feel and build on that!!

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  14. Oh Ann! I also do it all the time --- that is, take photos and look at myself afterwards, and feel bad with what I see --- but then, my husband and my kids will reassure me that I look OK... So, i think what's important is you feel great and that you're not giving up... I'm even learning from you because I haven't even started exercising yet --- and your post reminded me again to enroll in the gym!

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  15. I do this all the time with pictures but I love to take them! I'm sure you look awesome though. Teach me how to swim. I live in Hawaii and can't swim...totally sucks lol.

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  16. Cameras can be terribly horrifying. So can dressing room mirrors. I still don't fit into anything prepregnancy but refuse to acknowledge the fact that I'm 15 pounds heavier by wearing only skirts and dresses. It's so annoying! But in the end, it really IS how you feel. And if you feel strong, people will see you as strong. I really believe that.

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  17. It's all about how you feel. If you feel good, don't worry about the pics. Glad you and the fam had a good time.

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  18. I am sure you look great!!! But, I can totally relate!!! I'm kind of in the same place right now - I'm feeling great, but when I look at pictures of me in a bathing suit, I get very frustrated. Don't be too hard on yourself though!! : )

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  19. We always look at ourselves more critically than anyone else. I'm sure everyone else saw a vibrant, happy and strong woman!

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  20. I thought the same thing when I recently saw pics of me. Don't be discouraged!! I think you are beautiful :)

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  21. i SO relate..

    i love following your blog..

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